Dreams

"To dream that you are a witness to a theft, indicates that others are

wasting and stealing your time, energy, and ideas."

So yesterday was just odd. The day itself wasn't odd, but looking back, it's made me feel weird and I can't put a finger on why. We had a normal dinner, watched Corner Gas (don't ask) and went to bed when we normally would. It was hot....I mean, really hot. I just couldn't get the upstairs cooled off. There was no breeze, the air was heavy and humid. I already felt restless....like, I knew I needed to get some sleep, but I really couldn't calm my thoughts. I was thrilled to have spent part of the afternoon talking to an old friend, but some part of me was just out of sync with the rest of my head. My cell phone rang at 10pm and that kind of startled me out of bed. It was a Washington number....but no idea who. So back to bed....back to sleep. I had one of those sleeps where I woke up all night. Each time I moved, turned over, I woke up. I awoke at 3am and started feeling panicky that I was awake (silly girl, I know). I remember hearing a car go by and trying to focus on relaxing. Then my head took over and I thought I heard something downstairs....on the stairs and I kept looking in the hallway. Nothing. I tell myself to knock it off and sleep.

Then it gets weird.

As I often do, I fell back to sleep, but didn't realize it. Reality blended into my dreams and the next thing I remember was the Mr. and I in a bigger version of our bedroom. We're laying on the floor (?) and we're close to the closet. There's a group of unknown people in our house and he pushes me into the closet to hide. I'm trying to be quiet but I'm scared of him dealing with anything and don't want anything to happen to him. I vaguely think I have a cell phone, but can't dial it or something. The group of people have a "leader" - a male - who is somewhat telling them what to do. They are meticulously stealing items from us. One odd thing is I remember watching them go through the closet and the clothes. As they are finishing up taking what they want, the leader is summing up how much they can get for what they have taken. I remember two numbers - approximately $750 and $850 for each lot. As they are getting ready to leave, I say, "I just want to ask one question - I don't mean to be confrontational, but I want to ask"......"Can I rest assured that you won't come back to our house since you've been here once now ? Since you've taken everything of value, will you leave us alone ?" He tells me he cannot promise that. The moment before he answers, I feel somehow good to have this nearly behind us and feel that they won't be back.......but then when he answers, I know I cannot rest knowing they may be back.

Violation and fear are common trends in my dreams and I don't know why. I'm OCD about doors being locked and feeling "secure" all the time, even in the car. I somehow need to come to an understanding of where this stems from and what I can do to quell any feelings of unfounded fear. I feel it may all be traced back to being a teenager and having freak-boi banging on my window at all hours of the night (and we all know how that ended) but that was 20 years ago. That was many houses ago. Granted, that was awful, nerve-wracking and the epitome of violation..........but god,

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