Swooning

That's how it ends. After finishing New Moon, I'm swooning. And absolutely obsessed. I skipped through Twilight a bit slower, edging myself back and trying to read with an even and steady, but not devouring pace. I was up too late several nights, but I forced the breaks and was satisfied with my restrain. Regardless of the control, I felt like I was walking in a daze several days - caught up in the emotion of the book. At times, unable to keep myself from entirely sinking into the depths of it all.

New Moon - I started on Saturday at 9am and really had to force myself to stop last night - I read the last chapter this morning. While I can now say that I really enjoyed NM, I didn't feel that way the entire time. I was miserable while reading. I had a gaping hole in my chest also as I didn't really want to believe what I was reading. By the last few chapters, I was feeling better, hopeful.....alive again. I feel like it's ok to relax, that things are back the way they should be. There were several times in NM where I felt Stephenie added too many adverse emotions - it bordered on showing its true nature of being a teen novel. I was swept back to memories of Judy Blume books and the over written angst. Obviously, those were brief moments but still present, at times. Or perhaps those were my own emotions being interjected - the desire...no, the NEED to have things work out as I felt they had to and my irritation at the characters fighting the inevitable.

I already feel absolute dread for Breaking Dawn. It's all unfounded - I haven't read a thing about it, but just knowing that others are so unhappy with it, I'm already fearful. I shouldn't get ahead of myself though - Eclipse is next....today. I'll try to pace myself a bit more again since I already feel the intense fear of reading too quickly, having it all over too soon and being left alone.

In other news, I haven't done a damn thing this weekend other than read, sitting in front of my beloved a/c unit. Part of me would like to do the same thing today as soon as I get my hands on Eclipse, but I won't....I can't. I need to give my head a break from the fantasy - I have laundry to be done and I need to get out to remind myself of what I really have going in my little corner of the world. May I add that it was HOT yesterday - like, really, really hot and muggy. I suppose that made it easy to stay perched in front of the icy breeze. Today should be better....still hot, but not as unbearable.